I am trying to quit smoking weed?

I started smoking weed when i was 14 but recently as in this year, my life seems to be falling apart. I used to enjoy smoking weed and the relaxing high it gave me but one day i had gotten high by my self and was walking down the street when i started to have a panic attack i cant even articulate the thoughts that were going through my head. I felt a severe shortness of breath and thought i was dying,(i forgot to mention there are people on this street walking all around) and i was having this break down while trying to act normal as to not draw attention to my self. After my high went away and i was at home rethinking the situation, my first thought was that i just bought a bad sack of weed and i threw it out. A few days later i was smoking with my friend and having a good time and the same feeling happened again but i just tried to think about something else and the panic attack went away. Almost every time i get high from that point on this has been happening but i found away to cope with it so i doest bother me anymore when i get high.

The next thing that started happening to me is that whenever i got high i felt like i had a deeper insight than anyone else on the planet and whenever i would look at someone i would judge them negatively even if they were friends i was finding flaws in them and began seeing them as losers. I began to get hostile thoughts for example one of my friends gave me friendly nod when we were smoking together and then instantly i just wanted to punch him in the face. I dont go threw with any of the thoughts but the fact that i even think something like that bothers me.

Also i began to get the feeling that whenever i would get high at home and go outside that everyone was watching me and judging me like i was the scum of the earth. So i began to become antisocial and there was a point during the summer where i stayed in the house for 3 weeks just getting high by myself because that was the only way i felt i could enjoy the marijuana i craved so much. (This is odd for me because i am a very social person sober) Also because i was getting high in my house my parents eventually found out what i was doing they told all my family members and i felt horrible, but once again i chose marijuana over my family after about a year of getting caught smoking marijuana every so often I began to develop a hate for my family i didn't care what they thought of me and isolated my self from them i haven't said a word to my younger brother or sister and don't even acknowledge there existence any more. I feel as if i have no emotions any more and nothing phases me anymore. I left a private school in the suburbs because the school had confiscated my cell phone(it had incriminating pictures of drugs on it and conversations about dealing on it) and were deciding wether to kick me out or not but i decided to fill out withdrawal form before the school reached a decision. The form made it look like i left for financial reasons, so that i wouldn't have an expulsion on my record(i have good grades a 3.4 GPA) i am now currently a senior in a chicago public school and am applying to colleges but i don't want to carry this life style on to college. I have basically severed any emotional connections with my family and i want to start a new life when i start college I also want to leave marijuana behind but i have tried before but feel that i am mentally addicted to it. I need help or tips or any information to help me kick this habit. I am 17 and feel the weight of the world on my shoulders.I am trying to quit smoking weed?
its all in the mind you are the master of yourself. once you have been off of it for a period of time the addiction will go away. some people need to hit rock bottom to stop. thats how it was for me. i had huet myself doing to much extacy and psychedelics and went crazy, so i stoped smoking and other drugs. so now ive only done it like 5 times in the past 6 months. and only in the past week have i found myself actually not wanting it. keep your mind on something else. i know its hard to do, but you need to change yourself and use the power you haveI am trying to quit smoking weed?
I'm So Sorry.. I was once suffering from withdraw of weed because it's not addicting but if you do it alot you need it. That's what a withdraw is. But to help you here's what i did. Participate in some sports such as, Football, Basketball, Jogging, or just hitting the gym every so days. And ask god to help you stop smoking.

Best of luck.

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